I Need Saving
“Save me, O Lord, in your kindness.”
I have a confession. I have already failed at my Lenten sacrifices. Last week, I found myself making excuses and concocting lots of great ideas about why I should be lenient with myself. And when I failed, I felt like crap. So I pushed Jesus away.
I failed Him (so soon!), and so I hid. Like Adam and Eve in the garden, I hid. I hid my heart and pushed Him away because I was ashamed of myself. I failed, and I wasn’t okay with it. But that is all about me.
Lent is about intimacy.
Today, I’m reminded that Lent is about intimacy - it’s about growing close to the Lord. My failure isn’t meant to isolate me - it’s meant to teach me about my need for Jesus and His kindness. I need His kindness to break through my pride and show me love even when I fail.
Sisters, I can’t afford to be shocked by my failure. I’m totally fallible. I need saving, and even if that’s uncomfortable, I need to press into the Lord. I might be fallible, but there’s one who isn’t. And He is kindness itself. So, today, I’m getting humble and crying out, “Save me, O Lord, in Your kindness.”
Father,
Thank You for loving me no matter what. Thank You for reaching out and saving me. Thank You for coming after me and coming after my heart without ceasing.
God, help us to turn towards you. Help us to check our egos and come to You when we fail and when we fall. Teach us how to let You be our strength.
God, we love You. Show us how to grow close to You - even in our worst moments. Amen.